But what if this waiting game wasn't yours personally, but a loved one? You are not personally going through the physical or mental drama but yet you are, and you wish it were you, not them.
Do you hover, hound, pester and continually ask how are you, you ok, can I do anything? How do you know how long to wait before you ask again or call or text with a random question, just to touch base?
And how, now do you tell that person just how much you love them and need them without making it sound dramatic or anticlimactic, or selfish or too emotional? Things that should have been said all along yet maybe understood without words all along. But can, you be sure? Are you ever sure?
How do you articulate to someone that although you might not have always agreed with the method of an action, you always knew the right decision had been made, that you never once doubted the end result, ever; just the execution or the feeling of being pushed away; not needed. How do you burden someone with your insecurities when they themselves are dealing with more than anyone should. You don't.
Is there ever a way to say what you feel during stressful times without tears or sadness? I don't know, but I doubt there is, for me anyway. And maybe, just maybe, there should be tears. Tears don't mean weaknesses; they show passion and caring.
So, in the end you wait, you love, and you pray.
Really, what else is there to do?
